All the Single Ladies

At the risk of being misunderstood I leave you with these words. Not written for pity, it's just a glimpse into the journey that God has for me. I also know there's a lot of other single woman (friends) out there who can maybe identify, and so this is for you as well. 

The Single State

What am I doing that needs to die?

I've so many questions that end in "Why?"

Let me find contentment in being "alone."

To live in the truth this world is not my home.

How do I stay true to who You created me to be?

Yet not come across as "better than thee?"

Help me to stand for what I know is true,

Even if it's not the easy or popular thing to do.

Take away  and destroy the idols that take Your place,

Please come and reign in me with Your sufficient grace.

Teach me how to let go of what I often pray for,

Instead may I grow to trust You more and more.

Show me how to be content in the single state I'm in,

Yet not shut down, the deep longing and desire within.

You already know what the future has in store,

So please give me the courage to walk through the door.

If You've called me to walk through this world just with You,

I surrender to Your will for Your ways are perfect and true,

Thank You for being so patient and loving with me,

For your faithfulness and kindness is helping me to see.

That You do truly know what is best.

In You my soul can safely rest.

    I have never written about being single. Well until now. Maybe because for so long I never really put myself in that category.  Yes, I prayed for someone to come into my life and often dreamed of that day. Yet the thought of actually being single didn't really seem to be on the forefront. Life was full. My days were filled with lots of activities, other single friends, and I, for the most part was content to be wherever God had me at that time. Maybe the biggest reason was that I always thought this being single was just temporary. Like maybe I would meet him tomorrow, or someone I once knew would come back into my life, or hey, maybe that good looking guy in the coffee shop would be the "one." I never dreamed I would find myself in my 30's and single. I was the girl that people said would be married by the time I was 20. ( well unless one can turn back time that will never be so :) People over the years have told me that they're praying that God will send someone into my life. I've had people speak into that being single part is just a season giving me slivers of hope that maybe God will bring marriage to pass, and yet here I am wrestling with being single maybe more than ever before. I feel the ache of seeing others have what I've dreamed of for so long, and I wonder if that will ever happen for me. (if you're there also, know that God cares and I do as well )

 

  Questions & thoughts pass through my mind, What am I doing wrong? Maybe I should pray harder. Or maybe lower my standards. Why do I seem invisible to single guys? Am I not pretty enough? Is there something I've done or not done that keeps me single? Should I be more bold? Maybe learn how to flirt.

   Yes, I know I know.. but those are questions that come and if you're a single woman maybe you have them too. Don't worry, I know the truth. The truth is that unless God is in it, I don't want it even if my heart is so desperately longing for it. ( a godly relationship ) The truth is I'm not willing to comprise God's Word in order to change my relationship status. (not saying that I haven't been tempted )

Yet I still wrestle, I still shed tears. 

I still have dreams, and I still fight fears.

Prayers are whispered again and again

Hope clung to like a long lost friend.

    Maybe you also find yourself where I am now. Your questioning God's timing and your wondering how? Just know that you're not alone even if it really feels like you are. You can trust God's promises, and His love reaches that far. 

    Rise up single women, to the calling which God has on your life. He will be right there beside you in the good and the strife. Continue to seek first God' kingdom, and be sold out for Him. May His fire burn deep and strong within. Pray like you've never prayed before. Keep on trusting the One who has already won the war. Let your heart beat with His love. Turn your eyes up above. Don't be afraid to stand on His Word, Listen to what you have heard. Give and trust He will provide. Don't get caught in fear's raging tide. Run the race set before you. He will see you through!

                       Til next time, just a Texas girl saved by grace

P.S. To those woman who have walked before me on this journey I welcome your words of wisdom and advice of how to be more focused on Christ and less focused on being single.