But when I fear what others think,
I realize that the unseen chains,
Are idols that area causing me to sink.
There may not be statues in my room,
But if I stop and look at my heart,
I see their ugly faces in disguise,
Causing me to want to rend them apart.
They may not be made of metal or wood,
& their name may not be sports, food, or clothes,
But they still separate me from my God,
And even though "secret" He sees and knows.
I say that I love God, but is that true?
When idols like fear of men, pride and unbelief,
To name a few, are residing deep inside,
Along with shame, how can my soul find relief?
Will I continue to deny the "invisible" idolatry?
Or will I open up my heart & let the Light in,
Allowing Jesus to destroy those idols,
And cleanse me from my shame & sin.
No idols. Only Jesus reigning as King of my life,
That's the place where I long to be.
A woman completely dead to sin & idolatry,
Who is filled with perfect love & liberty!
Life is so full of good & hard. Happy hello's. (my Delaware family welcomed a sweet baby girl =) & I've been blessed to spend hours holding & enjoying her in this newborn stage.
Once again God has blessed me with another year of life. Not sure how I got this close to 30 this fast, but here I am. :) I also can't help but reflect of how around this time 3 years ago things were so dark & how merciful God is. Of how I'm still here, & how He has been faithful!
& yet there is hard. Days when I come home from school and I'm exhausted. & I wonder why I'm doing what I'm doing. Then I wake up the next day & God gives me what I need. He reminds me that He's here & that it's not about me anyways. Sometimes I think I make the hard, harder by my own trying to work things all out, getting frustrated, instead of trusting & believing the truth that God already knows. That He's already there & I just need to be faithful. Resting in the fact that even though I can't, He can!
Oh & somedays you walk out your door & there it is.
To name a few, are residing deep inside,
Along with shame, how can my soul find relief?
Will I continue to deny the "invisible" idolatry?
Or will I open up my heart & let the Light in,
Allowing Jesus to destroy those idols,
And cleanse me from my shame & sin.
No idols. Only Jesus reigning as King of my life,
That's the place where I long to be.
A woman completely dead to sin & idolatry,
Who is filled with perfect love & liberty!
Life is so full of good & hard. Happy hello's. (my Delaware family welcomed a sweet baby girl =) & I've been blessed to spend hours holding & enjoying her in this newborn stage.
& yet there is hard. Days when I come home from school and I'm exhausted. & I wonder why I'm doing what I'm doing. Then I wake up the next day & God gives me what I need. He reminds me that He's here & that it's not about me anyways. Sometimes I think I make the hard, harder by my own trying to work things all out, getting frustrated, instead of trusting & believing the truth that God already knows. That He's already there & I just need to be faithful. Resting in the fact that even though I can't, He can!
Oh & somedays you walk out your door & there it is.
An incredibly beautiful double rainbow. *Our God is an awesome God!*
til the next time...
God's DE girl
