Now that I've come to the place of deciding that being where He is, is the only place worth living, the journey is still hard at times, but so much sweeter. Did I know all this before? Yes, indeed. Yet I slowly drifted away from His love. I slowly allowed the lies of the Enemy to invade my thoughts and control what I did. I allowed the voices of those around me to be louder than the voice of the One who knows me best and loves me most. I chose wrong and because of that I hurt those around me. It all happened like that song, "It's a slow fade...". It's not like I woke up one morning and was like "I'm going to listen to the people around me, live in fear, and be a slave to sin instead of living as a child loved by God." Nope. Of course not. Sometime along the way I slowly stopped believing the Truth and even though I may have appeared to have it all together on the outside [like that really matters anyways] inside I was believing lies. That is wrong. It is sin and because of that sin in my life the Light wasn't there. Without Light how can Love grow? So my life became a dark and miserable place to be. Yet when we desire Truth God doesn't leave us in the dark. He comes and He shines His light to reveal the wrongs He wants to make right. The wounds and fears that He wants to heal with Love. That is why I am so thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who allows His wayward children to come back Home. I've learned that our ways are not God's ways again & again. I've learned that love really does exist. I've learned that God can change my way of thinking. Hallelu! I've learned that I am weak, and that only God is the One who can meet my deepest needs. That humility is a willingness to be known who I really am. Best of all that Love won. It won that day on Calvary and it wins again today in my heart. I pray that you will know what it's like to abide in God's love as well, there's no better place to be.
This song is my heart's anthem right now...
“There's a brand new love
in this old heart of mine,
took a lot of healing LORD,
took a little time,
now the clouds roll away
and the sun's gonna shine!”
Take heart.
Wherever ever you are, whatever you are facing, God's love is still real, His arms are still open, and He still cares about you! You can trust Him.
"Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us.
For I am persuaded that, neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor power, nor things present, nor things to come,
Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus."
Romans 8:37-39
til next time, God's Canada girl
